Born into Heaven
September 10, 2004
~Stillborn, but born still~
My baby girl, Hope, died in utero after a very difficult pregnancy of bleeding, premature rupture of membranes, and bedrest. I was induced and she was delivered silently at 22 weeks conception.
I had started bleeding at 10 weeks and was placed on modified bedrest at 14 weeks. The bleeding finally stopped at 18 weeks and I was looking forward to being able to relax and enjoy the remainder of the pregnancy. Just the next day, my water broke and I was admitted to the hospital. The doctors didn't think I'd make it to 24 weeks (viability) without getting an infection or going into labor. Neither one of those things happened, but her heart mysteriously stopped beating too soon.
Not a day goes by that I don't love and think about my sweet baby girl. The days will pass so slowly until I can see her again.
What a glorious day this was!! The bleeding stopped and it was confirmed that we were going to get the baby girl we'd been dreaming off for so long. We'd lost a baby to miscarriage earlier in the year and were so anxious to have another baby in our home. Our 5-year-old longed for a sibling - especially a baby sister. My husband wanted a "Daddy's Little Girl." I knew as soon as she was born she would wrap him around her tiny little finger.
I love this ultrasound photo because it is the only good picture I have of her. She has the exact same profile as our son, Cole ~ cute little upturned nose and everything. I can't look at his profile without thinking of her. | 
