YOU'RE STILL HERE
AT THE FINEST LEVEL OF MY BEING, YOU'RE STILL WITH ME.
WE STILL LOOK AT EACH OTHER,AT THAT LEVEL BEYOND SIGHT.
WE TALK AND LAUGH WITH EACH OTHER, IN A PLACE BEYOND WORDS.
WE STILL TOUCH EACH OTHER,ON A LEVEL BEYOND TOUCH.
WE SHARE TIME TOGETHER IN A PLACE,WHERE TIME STANDS STILL.
WE ARE STILL TOGETHER,ON A LEVEL CALLED LOVE.
BUT I CRY ALONE FOR YOU,IN A PLACE CALLED REALITY.
Richard Lepinsky
My World
No, it doesn't get easier with time.
The sun continues to rise,
to shine warmly on those who walk
this earth, living the life of
innocence.
Unaware of the formidable pain that is just
a breath away from any of them.
They don't understand what it feels
like to be empty inside,
to lack depth,
to be a shell of the person they once were.
And, mercifully they will forever live
the life of the unaware.
In my world you look to the sky
and see the sun shining brightly above,
but sadly the warmth doesn't reach you.
In it's place is
a dark, cold cloud that is now
your constant companion.
It chills your bones,
it fills your heart,
it numbs your soul.
What you once believed in no longer exists.
Your plans for tomorrow,
forever wiped away.
Your future forever changed.
The memories that once brought smiles to your lips
now tear through your heart.
You want to hang on to your memories,
but at times you want to escape from them, too.
Memories are reminders of what once was
and a reminder of what will never again be.
Today. Well, today just is.
It's here to endure.
Some days you have to reach so far down into
the depths of your being just to continue on.
Some days you know it would just be easier
to say good bye.
To end the pain.
To drift into a blissful sleep never to open
your eyes again.
Because in sleep you have the gift of
of peace.
Your mind shuts down.
No thoughts.
No pain.
For a while.
For a precious little while.
But, dawn always follows the night.
You wake.
You remember.
The pain returns.
Another day
to endure.
And, so it goes.
And, so it is.
My world.
My life.
Without my son.
Adrianne Johnston 3/17/09
