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In Memory Of megan aspinall

5th July 2001 – 5th September 2001

This obituary was created in the memory of megan aspinall, born in Wolverhampton, England on the 5th July 2001 and passed away on the 5th September 2001, 2 months old.

Biography

Full Name: megan aspinall

Born: 5th July 2001

Passed Away: 5th September 2001

Age: 2 months old

Location: wolverhampton

Country: The United Kingdom

Mother: Julie

Birth Place: Wolverhampton, England

Siblings: Haydn & Rhianna

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This obituary was created by julie on 6 Jun 2007 (update)

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Your life was a blessing
your memory a treasure...
You are loved beyond words
and missed beyond measure...
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I found out I was having Megan just before christmas 2000. I didn't tell anyone until after christmas though, just wanted to keep it to myelf for a while. When I did tell people they were over the moon, and we soon started to buy baby things. Her first scan was when I was around 17 weeks pregnant, It felt magical watching my little angel floating round in my tummy. Her birth was booked in for July 5th 2001 and I couldn't wait.

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εГЇз 4th July 2001
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I went into hospital at 8pm, ready to have Megan on the 5th. I was nervous, didn't sleep all night and was in a lot of discomfort for some reason, it later turned out that Megan was breach and in fact had turned that night.

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εГЇз 5th July 2001
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Megans Birthday!!! I was prepared for theatre at about 9.am, Taken to theatre about 11 for preperation for her birth, I had chosen to be awake so it didnt take too long. At 12.16pm My little Princess was born. When I looked at her my heart melted. I had 2 kids but had never felt like this before. I waited for them to stitch me up and wanted to hold her, while in the recovery room I asked to hold my little girl, Her name was never going to be Megan, but when I looked at her the name Megan came to me and so she was named. I beamed with pride when I looked at her and didn't want any visitors as i didnt want to share her with anyone.

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εГЇз 8th July 2001
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Megans homecoming.
Megan and myself came home from hospital today. I have waited for 3 days to bring my lil princess home so as not to have to share her with anyone. We settled in nicely and all appeared well. She was like a dream come true, a perfect baby, so contented.

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εГЇз 24th August 2001
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I get up today determined to find out if my baby girl is ok. She is still in bed at 10am and hasnt had a bottle for 8 hours. I get my 2 children ready for summer school and ring the clinic for advice. I speak to a health visitor who tells me that my baby needs to see a doctor. I call the GP and he sees her. He tells me there is something wrong with Megan but he doesnt know what it is. So he sends her to the local hospital for further tests. Once there they say there is nothing wrong with her and want to discharge her. I ask them if i can feed her and the say yes. I ask them to watch what happens when i try to feed her and then it all goes wrong. Her sats dropped through the floor and they admit her to ICU. They do lots of tests and come to us later on and tell us they suspect that she has something wrong with her heart.

εГЇз Friday night
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The doctor comes to me and tells me that she thinks Megan has got a hole in her heart that needs mending. I am not to worry (?) and that they are just doing a heart trace now to see whats happening. They leave me in the dark about everything until she comes back to me and tells me she needs transferring to Birmingham ASAP. I later find out that Dr Miller was worried as soon as he saw the trace. We spend a restless night with her and she appears relaxed and sleeps well.

εГЇз 25th August 2001
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Megan is transferred today to Birmingham for further investigations. After about 4 hours of different tests the doctor takes me to a room and tells me that Megan is seriously ill and in order to survive she needs and operation. She has a rare heart condition and surgery is her only hope.
However they have no ICU beds here so they look for a different hospital that can take her. They find The Glenfield in Leicester can take her, so is transferred again. I have to leave my daughter for the first time in 7 weeks as she had to go alone in the ambulance as she needed so many medical staff with her.

I travel ahead of her so as to be there before her so she isnt alone with strangers. They do further tests and tell me that she is booked for surgery tomorrow morning and that really the outlook is getting slimmer. I spend the night by her cot and just feel like everything I have in the world is being slowly snatched away from me.

εГЇз 26th August 2001
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Megan is in surgery today for nearly 8 hours, the longest 8 hours of my life, when she comes back from theatre she looks so poorly, so drained and so fragile. My heart could break for her. The doctor tells me that Megan is so poorly and that her heart is damaged from recent heart attacks, I ask how i missed these and he said unless you are a doctor you wont know a baby is having a heart attack. I feel like i have failed her as i didnt even know my little girl had had a heart attack, he said it was probably the episodes of choking that i had told him about after her feeding. I am gutted, I sat there and watched my little girl have these attacks a few times. I didn't even know how to help her. I felt so sorry for her that she has a mum who didnt even know that her daughter was so very poorly. Megan is stabilised and for the next few days appears to stay stable.

εГЇз 29th August 2001
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The doctor tells me today that Megan has took a turn for the worst and that I must decided whether to baptise her or not. I decide to have her baptised and the hospital arrange for this to be done. My brother Nant and his wife Sarah are her godparents, and so Megan was baptised on 29th August 2001. Later on after she is baptised she appears to pick up a little and I pray that the miracle I have prayed for is here. She remains critical but stable until the following tuesday.

εГЇз 4th/5th September 2001
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Megan has gained 1/2 an ounce today, she now weighs 8lbs 3 1/2 ozs. She had her first poo today as well since she has been in hospital. I take this as a good sign, and she responds to me talking to her and touching her. Her eyes flicker when i talk to her and when i stroke her. We have a good day and all appears well. My little boy wants to see me so the hospital arrange for him to come stay with me overnight in the flat they borrowed us. Megan appears well and after talking to the doctor I decide to go to bed early with my son. Before I walk out the door I walk to a nurse and say to her "come fetch me when you need me". To this day I dont know why i said it to her and she was shocked as well. I take my son to bed at 9 - 9.30pm and by midnite there the nurse at the door telling me I am needed. The hospital arrange for my son to be collected by my dad incase the worst happens. I go into the PICU and they meet me at the door and take me to a room, they tell me that she has collapsed and that they need to open her up to see whats going wrong, the doctor tells me that she doesn't think there is any hope either way and i should consider turning off her life support. I have to decide whether to let my baby go in peace or be opened up again and messed about with. I spend some time with her and talk to her, I promise to go with her if she leaves me and I give her permission to leave me if she wants to go. I tell her I love her and always will. The pain in her face is unbearable. I decide to let her go....I still don't know to this day if this was the right decision. They switch off her life support and she slips awayinto the night. I watch my daughter become an angel and i dont know what to do. I spent the night with her, got her dressed for the first time in 2 weeks, wrapped her up and sat nursing her in a chair for hours. I laid her in her crib to sleep comfortably. For the first time in 3 weeks my little girl looks free from pain. I finally decide to go home at about 12noon, i kiss my daughter goodbye and ask the nurses to look after her until she is collected. I dont know what to do as I have never lost anyone before. I remember going home and thats it for a few days.

εГЇз 14th September 2001
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Today is the day i go to see my daughter in the chapel of rest, The last few days have been a blur and the doctor has given me something to keep me asleep. I go to see Megan very early on my own and she isnt mine anymore, my daughter isnt there just a shell. My daughter is in Heaven free from pain and suffering. I kiss her and put her a letter in and some personal stuff and leave her. I cant cope with it all. I hate leaving her but what other choice do i have. The weekend passes in a blur. I dont know where I am.

εГЇз 17th September 2001
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Today is the day my baby girl is committed. Her funeral is changed at the last minute from a funeral to a passing of Angels, as the priest and doctor thinks it will be more uplifting for me. I dont know what that means!!!!! I spend the day not knowing what to do or what to feel. Her funeral is at 10am, and her committal is about 11.15. I stand there next to my dad as he lowers her into her resting place, I feel numb, I dont know what to do. I go home and serve tea and coffee to people and say thank you for coming. i go back to Megan and just lie on the floor next to her. I want my baby back so much. I spend the next few days doing just this, lying on the floor next to her just wanting to be with her.

εГЇз 2007 εГЇз
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It has taken me nearly 6 years to get to where I am today, I miss Megan as if it were yesterday, I love her more than anything. But I am coming to understand She is in a better place and that she was just too poorly to survive. I wanted her to stay with me but if that meant she was in pain forever i think perhaps she chose well. I did turn of her life support and to this day dont know if i did the right thing, but at the time she was so poorly and had been through so much i just wanted to give her peace.

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