Online Memorial Tribute

To My Sweetheart, My Wonderful Mickey: First of all my love, I  have to send out my heart felt apologies to your mother, we finally got our answers about what life was like for you, and we found out a lot, and now it is so much easier to understand, and I know now that your mother is a wonderful woman, she has obviously had to be very strong, I admire her strength, but I wish I could have been there to help her, and you, and your brother. I should also be adding my girlfriend "Joy" to my memorial for you, as she has added my name to the plaque she had made for you, and it now sits ever so beautifully on the wall of the Cavern, and your name is in lights. I have been taking a lot of flack from the group baby, all I did was mention to people on there, that this memorial at the Cavern had been set up for you, and all hell broke loose, and a little about "Gloria" as well. But here I can write what I want, about who I want! You were never of any real use to the moderator of the T.Rex group, and I found out that that is what it all boils down to, you see "Gloria", and "Bill", well they probably figure they can help them with gigs and things like that, and I should say (marcbolanandtrexgroup), as that is the one involved, and now they have even turned a dear friend against me. But that is ok, my best friend in the U.K. is "Joy", and she is wonderful, and has been like the someone I have never met before. She always has the most wonderful, and heartfelt things to say to me, and never judges me. I also still have Jo and Rosy in the U.S.A., and others, so I will be alright. But like I told "the moderator" there were more than just Marc in the band, and the sign there says for "Marc Bolan and his band T.Rex", yet people frown on it if people want to pay their respects to all of you, I say, so why the sign, and why the brass name plates on the stairs? Perhaps that is what they would call a double standard, if you have your noses in the air, and think you are better than everyone else, you can probably get a free pass, if you are just the average Joe, or less, you are limited to what you can do there, or say, or even leave as memorials, unless of course you are only there for Marc Bolan! Last night was not good for me, I wasn't really worried about leaving the group, I asked to be removed, of course the moderator is saying different, well he has to, he does not want to admit to being a phoney, and a liar. So all his crap about saying , and expressing how you feel is all crap, a load of hog wash, unless you say things EVERYONE agrees with. And you my sweet, are not one of them, but I tell you now sweetie, just as sure as I am breathing, you have more class in your baby finger, than those people have in their entire bodies, you were an absolute beautiful person, and I have the stories from different people to prove it, and Joy and I are always on your side my sweet. We do not care about the drugs, or the booze, because even with all of that you were still a sweetheart, you were never violent, (unlike Marc), he was mean to you, whether it was verbally, or physically, he was very mean to you, I know people who would have wiped the floor up with Marc had he kicked one of them!  To your mum, I thank her from the bottom of my heart for bringing such a wonderful man into this cold cruel world, I am sorry you and Chris had to suffer so terribly in your final days, and I am certain Joy will feel the same way.  So Mickey it feels so good to be able to write a proper eulogy for you, you deserve it, and so much more. And baby if you are the angel I know you are, I hope you like your memorial in the Cavern, and always know you have my heart for always and forever, and beyond, and Joy's too, we are both so devoted to you. You will not be forgotten baby, someone as special, and wonderful as you baby, is never ever forgotten. I love you more than you will ever know my Mickey, you are my soul mate, and so much more. There has never been one as beautiful as YOU...........Deanna June,24th/2008 (Meanwhile, I'm still thinkin!)