Online Memorial Tribute

I lost my child a short while ago.
I wish you wouldn't turn away
or change the subject,
because it's ok.
You see at first I couldn't feel.
It took me so long, but my friends,
it's all so real.
I hurt so much inside you see.
I need to talk about Michael,
so I wish that you would take the time
and come to talk with me.
You see, I was numb for so very long.
And people thought I should be strong.
They didn't realize that I couldn't feel.
My heart made everything all unreal.
But then one day, as I woke
I clutched my chest, I began to choke.
I scream, such a scream that came from me.
My Child! My Child!
Why did this have to happen to me?
But everyone has moved on you see.
Everyone except for me.
Now, when I need my family and friends
most of all.
Between us now stands a brick wall.
My pain is more than I can bare.
When I mention my child, I put on
my face with a smile.
I pretend that I am ok.
I am crying inside as I walk away.
But when I go to bed at night
I kiss my son's picture and tell him
goodnight.
Please say a prayer for a grieving
parent tonight.

(My Son was Murdered 2-16-06)